Although I have had some issues during this two days.
I wrote on this board with my phone that being strong is hard. Although the entry was lost due when I hit a wrong button and lost the whole entry, most annoying. Seeing him was harder than I thought, it is easier actually talking on the phone. Seeing him reminded me about the fact I have not had male human contact in so long.
Hugging my nephew goodbye is not the same, it is contact with a male but not the same. I miss the intimacy of being touched by him. I had to stand in front of him for a bit the day before. I so wanted to lean backwards and feel the length of him along my back. I craved it, more than sex. I so wanted to be spooned last night. I wanted to be held in my sleep. I was rather down last night.
Today was strange. I had gotten more touches from men today in a long time. Hands on the shoulders, pats on backs, one friend even hugged me no less than four times.
I guess when you want something bad enough you get it. *grins* I just have to think of a boyfriend/lover hard enough or want it hard enough I should get it. After all the touching manifested itself over night.
I will talk about the meeting tomorrow morning when I am on my work computer.